divided we stand, united we fall.

i need to do this on my own.

i need to stop listening to the voices that are constantly drowning me, to learn to tune out the speculations and judgments that others keep trying to shove down my throat, to not lose sight of my perspective and what i really want/need out of this.

but i know that despite all my efforts to be independent, i still need as much help as i can get to manage through this without losing my sanity... or myself.



there's only so much i can do to ease the situation and while i don't think i've done everything under the sun, all my efforts so far have been nothing but genuine.

to you, i am indifferent... but that doesn't mean i don't care.

i'm not as heartless as you think (yes, what a shocker). as sticky as this situation is, i opted not to bail my sorry ass out but to actually stick around long enough to clean up after my mess.

it's too easy to make accusations and compile a list of catastrophes & bad events you'd like to wish upon someone who has done you wrong in so many ways, one too many times... but putting yourself in someone else's shoes is almost always the unachievable task to master.

we're living in a self-destructive environment and we're both looking for a way out because we can't go on like this forever... the question is, how do we break out of the invisible ball and chain that bind us together?

it takes time to heal. we can either pick at each other's wounds or learn to live without this animosity.

what's it gonna be when the coin lands? heads or tails?