left in the dark.

you're not the only one who's confused.

i, too, am caught up in this battle with my head and my heart, of what's wrong and right - and try as i may, i can't seem to sort out this raging turmoil of emotions to figure out what i really feel about all of this.

i'm just messed up like that, you see.

i didn't mean to make things so hard for you.

i wish we could be completely honest and sit down for an open conversation. coward that i am like the Lion who lacks courage, i cannot bring myself to look you in the eye while we slowly break each other's hearts and spirits. i hope that someday you will reflect upon this and understand; you were all i ever needed and yet that wasn't enough for us to survive the drought of what this has become.